This month marks my time of late onset bipolar disorder.
What has changed over the past seven years? I often ask myself that same question!
Well, I’m still actively seeking for a new med cocktail that will bring me to a comfortable maintenance phase (remission) as I am still dreadfully medication resistant and it’s not from lack of trying! My psychiatrist (pdoc) and I have gone through many of the standard medications, the newest and latest on the market, many of those medications have been recommended by my readers. Unfortunately, the longer I do not get in the maintenance phase the harder and harder I will be for me to achieve that.
I did have a few good years of having periods where I had a lot of energy and was pleased with my progress but I started slipping backwards last July; by October I was a mess for three months and it hasn’t been until recently that I am feeling like the new me. Although, I just came back from a very VERY hard dip, literally fighting off psychosis with what ever mental power I had left in me to prevent hospitalization.
So, my medications are just keeping me here on this planet without becoming totally delusional.
What is my saving grace?? My coping strategies that I have learned through Dialetical Behaviour Therapy (DBT), Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT), Neuroplasticity (rewiring my brain’s circuits), listening to my family, and my mental health advocacy work.
Much love, Laura Marchildon <3
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